My B/D S/M

I awake to a dream
I find you
You are not there.
Your presence is everywhere...
..and nowhere all at once.

I want you
I don't even know what you are
I try to define myself by your reputation
But Your words are not set in stone
You have no walls...no boundaries

I need you
I feel it in every part of my soul
I am scared to have what I need
I want to run from this and never turn back
I know I will stay and try to make You my life

You are not always what you should be to me
But I can not say what that is
I love you...
and I hate you
I'm proud to call you home...
and I'm ashamed to be near you.

I feel you coursing through my veins
Like a disease with a name that is muttered
Like a soft moan
From the lips of a woman in the throws of ecstasy...
but too ashamed to admit that she enjoyed it

I cry when I have you
And cry when I know I don't really
The pain of our meeting is my heart, my joy...my soul
The pain of being apart is refreshing, scary....
It makes me feel insecure

I will never give up...