I feel on edge

[autumnluv143]

Or rather, on the edge of a very precarious edge that is going to tip and I'm sure to end up free falling into some unknown place. That's an incredibly uncomfortable feeling. I've noticed that I've had some nervous habits showing their ugly faces and I'm not welcoming them. Like right now, I'm sitting here forcibly trying to stop my legs from shaking.

I'm nervous for other people and for myself. I unhappy with myself. Oh, and I got an email this morning from UNO saying that I was no longer employed there. I can see this turning into a nightmare. I believe I'm employed there until March if the grant isn't approved. But none of my bosses have been around so I can't ask them. That's going to REALLY suck if I lose that job. But if I can't ask them, I guess I'll start polishing up my resume and start looking around for something else.

I lost track of what I was writing. Perhaps I'll finish it later. That's another thing. I'm losing focus on the most basic of things. *sighs*

Comments

[sweetlagoodgirl.livejournal.com]

You could always come to First Friday tonight and imbibe a bit :-) That always makes me feel better, at least temporarily. *hugs*

[autumnluv.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately, no I can't. I have to work tonight. That's why I've been missing from First Fridays for so long.

[sweetlagoodgirl.livejournal.com]

Oh, sorry hun. I haven't been to any in months either but tonight I think I am going :-)

[kjaereste.livejournal.com]

Let us hope that you're able to find a mental coccoon into which you may find solace and centering. Sounds like a good BLARGH! is in order.