Brain work-outs..

[autumnluv143]

I've talked before about how my brain works. Weird as it tends to get, the randomness can be a bit amusing from time to time. For example, I've discovered today that I feel like I'm being watched pretty much ALL the time. Normally when other people talk about it, they say things like "I have the eerie feeling I'm being watched" and I sort of understand what they mean at the time. But after one of those many conversations that I have in my head with people that may or may not exist about things that may or may not happen...I've discovered that I do know what they mean all of the time. Everywhere I go, no matter the circumstance, I feel like I'm being watched. That very well may be why I feel so comfortable being in my house, alone, all the time as opposed to being in public where the mysterious wandering eye can exist. Blech. I'm just musing on that.

I had a dream last night that I was (dating, with, engaged maybe?) to a guy whose children I went to high school with. I've never actually met this man. I'm assuming that this man is even alive. I don't know what he looks like in real life and even if that played a part, the guy in my dream was obviously forgettable. He had no discernable face or form. All I remember is grabbing his arm to lay my head on his chest/shoulder area and asking him if he would take me somewhere... I don't remember where. It had to do with his grandkids or his niece.... or something. It's vague now. I just remember waking up and thinking to myself..."Oh good god, I really didn't like that whole family when I was in school! None of the brothers or the one cousin....Oi!" What stands out about the whole thing is the feeling of my head on his shoulder, intimate, a lover's touch. Geezus I'm lonely for that shit...

I'm hoping to finish a film project I helped out on last semester, by the end of this semester. We'll see. I got an email today of some shots I have to build for capture in Second Life. Should be nothing to that. Have to find a kitten avatar, play with the mongoose avatar to see if I can get the voice gesturing to work with it, and set up a crappy garage sale in an alleyway with a spiget in it (apparently a UNO film tradition at this point). Definitely a low-budget, filmed in New Orleans kind of film, but the storyline seems pretty funny. And the director is a trip. I have to start working on that tomorrow.

Not sure what promted the update today when I haven't for so long, but I think i just felt the need to start typing and let whatever flow out. I should try to find something substantial to write about. Rather...I would but I have entirely too many projects and stuff to worry about for school. The least of which is a stupid collage for my Fine Arts - Imaging class. Blech. Wait...let me express that better....BLECH!!

Comments

[out-totheblack.livejournal.com]

Good luck on all that. I was wondering about Second Life when I saw you the other day but didn't know if I should ask or not.