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[autumnluv143]

I hate it when something I want doesn't happen and I know it's the right thing anyway. I'm so impatient about things. It's not that this thing I want won't happen, it just won't happen soon. I feel like I'm about to explode with nowhere to do it. 5 1/2 months. That's the longest time I've ever spent concentration on one thing like this and now that I know it's what I want, and I can't have it, I feel like a brat. I'm getting over that...quickly. I hate that feeling.

Patience is a virtue worth learning and there is One who will teach me patience if it kills him in the process. So thank you to him. I will just bide my time playing neopets and being a good girl to keep from getting myself into trouble. Just the thought of what I want wakes me up, gets me giddy and brings all kinds of twisted emotions to the surface that I'd forgotten I had. I like it. I have no complaints...only impatience biting at my heels. This is not my decision however and I must learn. I am welcoming the experience and know that it is right (logically).