Wayyyy past my bedtime
Jun. 15th, 2005 07:46 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
autumnluv143I had a long conversation with Him last night about some things that I've had trouble getting out so I seem to peck at them lightly and then wonder why I never seem to get an answer I'm satisfied with. I really should stop that. I should know by now that he is an intelligent, caring and patient man and that no matter what I tell him, he will respond in those ways.
I realized last night that I'd been feeling rejected when he had nothing but intentions of protecting me and himself. Yes, they are more than just words to me and to him as well. I feel like I need to say it for various reasons...other than that's the way I feel. He says that there are some things he'd rather hear in person. Ok...if that were the main reason, that makes much more sense to me and there is no feeling of rejection. He also said that he needs to ensure that it's truly how I feel before I say it. I understand. I may not like it because I feel like I've been overrun with emotions..but logically it makes sense and I'm dealing with it.
I really should stop having deep conversations after my bedtime and when I'm really exhausting. Luckily though, while I woke up thinking about it, I didn't wake up dwelling on it. I saw a response from him in my journal and instantly beamed. I am in a good mood...exhausted but good.
I realized last night that I'd been feeling rejected when he had nothing but intentions of protecting me and himself. Yes, they are more than just words to me and to him as well. I feel like I need to say it for various reasons...other than that's the way I feel. He says that there are some things he'd rather hear in person. Ok...if that were the main reason, that makes much more sense to me and there is no feeling of rejection. He also said that he needs to ensure that it's truly how I feel before I say it. I understand. I may not like it because I feel like I've been overrun with emotions..but logically it makes sense and I'm dealing with it.
I really should stop having deep conversations after my bedtime and when I'm really exhausting. Luckily though, while I woke up thinking about it, I didn't wake up dwelling on it. I saw a response from him in my journal and instantly beamed. I am in a good mood...exhausted but good.
