Here we go again

[autumnluv143]

I am not sure why I only feel like writing here when I am hurt or angry, but seeing as that's how it is, I'm gonna go off now. I allowed myself to be hurt again. I'm so angry it's unbelievable. The only thing I've ever wanted besides a career is to be loved like I deserve and need to be. I'm a damned good person. There are plenty of guys out there who like me for me or they would like to like me for more but know they can't because they are incapable of being Dominant. Well..guess what..that's what I need in my life. I am tired of being rejected for one thing after another and I'm tired of not being good enough for other people. I am getting to that point again of not wanting to show anyone any emotion at all. I have so much to give and no one willing to accept it for all it's worth. My heart is shrinking before my eyes and I can't stand it. I refuse to feel like this again. I will not be tortured by my heart. I will never make a perfect submissive because I can't stand the thought of putting my heart into someone else's hands. My life...sure..why not..not worth much right now anyway. But my heart is different. Giving my heart to someone is like committing suicide of the soul. There won't be anyone I don't get hurt by if I do that...so why bother? Well not anymore. It's sex and some caring (maybe) but nothing more...

I will not allow anyone to hurt me again

Here comes the bitch again.

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[wynterkat.livejournal.com]

So what the hell happened after I went to bed? I can't leave you alone for a minute.... dammit.

[slanderouspanic.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
You know where to find me.