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Sounding Out
Sep. 25th, 2017 10:49 amThis is an appropriate place for me to express my hatred, right? I'm certainly not supposed to do it in other social media platforms because of the range of people that are on my friend's list. But while I'm feeling rageful, I'm going to get this off my chest.
I. Fucking. Hate. The. Spin. Class. Instructor.
So my office is directly next to the spin class at the gym. There is no insulation in the wall to block any time of noise that comes through so I literally hear everything all day long. On Mondays and sometimes Thursday and Friday, I get this bass that vibrates the concrete foundation. On top of that, she chooses music that repeats and a high bass or electronic sound. I can't help it. I fucking hate her because it's only her class that's like this. Just like the only Zumba instructor I hate is the one who chooses the same type of music (my old office is next to group class studio).
A few weeks ago, I actually had to just go stand outside of my office and calm myself down. The stressors from the auditory issues were bringing me to tears. And I'm aware that the more stressed I am in other ways, it makes the misophonia much much worse. I finally had to explain to my boss that for 1 hour a day, a couple of days a week, I will be at radio silence because I just can't handle the noise.
The weird part about all of this is that I have these earphones that block the ear canal. Without plugging them into a device, I get the muffled sound, which is immensely helpful. But to block out the vibrating, stressful noises, I have to turn my music up to full blast. How can certain music bring me to tears and others soothe me back to calmness? Positive side is that if I damage my hearing too badly, I already know some sign language to be able to survive well in my older age. :)
I. Fucking. Hate. The. Spin. Class. Instructor.
So my office is directly next to the spin class at the gym. There is no insulation in the wall to block any time of noise that comes through so I literally hear everything all day long. On Mondays and sometimes Thursday and Friday, I get this bass that vibrates the concrete foundation. On top of that, she chooses music that repeats and a high bass or electronic sound. I can't help it. I fucking hate her because it's only her class that's like this. Just like the only Zumba instructor I hate is the one who chooses the same type of music (my old office is next to group class studio).
A few weeks ago, I actually had to just go stand outside of my office and calm myself down. The stressors from the auditory issues were bringing me to tears. And I'm aware that the more stressed I am in other ways, it makes the misophonia much much worse. I finally had to explain to my boss that for 1 hour a day, a couple of days a week, I will be at radio silence because I just can't handle the noise.
The weird part about all of this is that I have these earphones that block the ear canal. Without plugging them into a device, I get the muffled sound, which is immensely helpful. But to block out the vibrating, stressful noises, I have to turn my music up to full blast. How can certain music bring me to tears and others soothe me back to calmness? Positive side is that if I damage my hearing too badly, I already know some sign language to be able to survive well in my older age. :)
