Much needed update from afar.
Oct. 17th, 2005 02:08 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
autumnluv143So here I am in Denver where the temperature rarely gets above 70F. The air is drier and I'm also having sinus issues so I've got this dry build up in there that's adding to the misery that is the bronchitis I have and cold I've picked up cause of the weather change. These are all things I will get used to in time. I know I will. Humans do adapt (this has become a mantra).
Ok, so I'm actually not miserable. I'm just lost. I am scared to leave the apartment, don't ask me why, I just am. Then again, I know I need to get out there and find a job. I just need to replace that confidence I seem to have lost and decide that yes, I am good enough to get the kind of job I want. I am good enough. I am. If I don't happen to find close enough to the job I want, I will go back to Walmart. I just hope that I'm not doing a "I'm not going to get hired at any of those places anyway, so I'll just go where I'm comfortable and am not likely to make nearly the kind of money I need" thing. That would be very silly of me.
List of things to do tomorrow:
Laundry (if not finished today)
Get resume printed and copied.
Write cover letter.
Get oil changed in car.
There's more I just can't remember it.
I got here the day after the blizzard. The last time I was here, there was a blizzard just a few days before. Twice now, I've arrived in Colorado to snow...lots of it. The snow is gone now. It was totally off the streets by the time I crossed the state line. I got the storage unit all moved in and the Uhaul taken off my car the day after I got here. I am (am I?) moved into the spare room in Shi's boy's apartment (huge thanks to the both of them). I have put my resume up online at the Denver Post Job site. I have circled ads in the paper and plan on making a few calls when I'm finished with this. I need to get back to walmart today and add some things on to my layaway. I may do that after 6pm. I need to stop by Shi's and get my car charger out of her car. I've not used my phone at all because my battery keeps threatening to die and I can't seem to locate my wall charger. Bah..trivial.
I need to get back on a regular sleeping schedule. I keep going to sleep after midnight and not waking up until after 10am. I am NOT going to find a job that way. If I get up before 9am I'm more likely to put on some nice clothes and get out there and hit the pavement. I think I'm also afraid to get lost in Denver. I don't see how that would be possible really. The streets are basically set up like a grid and as long as I know which direction I'm going in, I should be fine. It's not like Louisiana where all the streets run around a body of water or a neighborhood that was there before the road.
I happened to check to make sure snow wasn't on it's way today and saw that there is another T.S. in the Gulf...The W one. This is great. I heard the video of the meteorologist on the Weather Channel say that it's got good potential to become a strong hurricane. It's projected path is up. This is not good. Up...is Louisiana. Dead on. I'm sure it will curve. I'm sure it will hit Florida somewhere. They don't need it any more than Louisiana does, but shit, I think Louisiana has seen enough for one decade. Oi, just the thought of it is disturbing.
Anyway, I had promised an update..and there one is. Well an update of sorts anyway. I will try to post more often. I just haven't been in the mood to write until today and I think that mostly had to do with finding my book. Now I can start working on that in my spare time. Well that, along with the blanket I'm crocheting, the rug I'm hooking (not that kind of hooking), the foil art I plan on learning and well..anything else that comes along. I really really hope I don't have free time for much longer.
Ok, so I'm actually not miserable. I'm just lost. I am scared to leave the apartment, don't ask me why, I just am. Then again, I know I need to get out there and find a job. I just need to replace that confidence I seem to have lost and decide that yes, I am good enough to get the kind of job I want. I am good enough. I am. If I don't happen to find close enough to the job I want, I will go back to Walmart. I just hope that I'm not doing a "I'm not going to get hired at any of those places anyway, so I'll just go where I'm comfortable and am not likely to make nearly the kind of money I need" thing. That would be very silly of me.
List of things to do tomorrow:
Laundry (if not finished today)
Get resume printed and copied.
Write cover letter.
Get oil changed in car.
There's more I just can't remember it.
I got here the day after the blizzard. The last time I was here, there was a blizzard just a few days before. Twice now, I've arrived in Colorado to snow...lots of it. The snow is gone now. It was totally off the streets by the time I crossed the state line. I got the storage unit all moved in and the Uhaul taken off my car the day after I got here. I am (am I?) moved into the spare room in Shi's boy's apartment (huge thanks to the both of them). I have put my resume up online at the Denver Post Job site. I have circled ads in the paper and plan on making a few calls when I'm finished with this. I need to get back to walmart today and add some things on to my layaway. I may do that after 6pm. I need to stop by Shi's and get my car charger out of her car. I've not used my phone at all because my battery keeps threatening to die and I can't seem to locate my wall charger. Bah..trivial.
I need to get back on a regular sleeping schedule. I keep going to sleep after midnight and not waking up until after 10am. I am NOT going to find a job that way. If I get up before 9am I'm more likely to put on some nice clothes and get out there and hit the pavement. I think I'm also afraid to get lost in Denver. I don't see how that would be possible really. The streets are basically set up like a grid and as long as I know which direction I'm going in, I should be fine. It's not like Louisiana where all the streets run around a body of water or a neighborhood that was there before the road.
I happened to check to make sure snow wasn't on it's way today and saw that there is another T.S. in the Gulf...The W one. This is great. I heard the video of the meteorologist on the Weather Channel say that it's got good potential to become a strong hurricane. It's projected path is up. This is not good. Up...is Louisiana. Dead on. I'm sure it will curve. I'm sure it will hit Florida somewhere. They don't need it any more than Louisiana does, but shit, I think Louisiana has seen enough for one decade. Oi, just the thought of it is disturbing.
Anyway, I had promised an update..and there one is. Well an update of sorts anyway. I will try to post more often. I just haven't been in the mood to write until today and I think that mostly had to do with finding my book. Now I can start working on that in my spare time. Well that, along with the blanket I'm crocheting, the rug I'm hooking (not that kind of hooking), the foil art I plan on learning and well..anything else that comes along. I really really hope I don't have free time for much longer.
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Date: 2005-10-17 03:09 pm (UTC)Making rugs and foil art? What up with that? :)
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Date: 2005-10-17 06:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-17 07:17 pm (UTC)Hope you find something quickly and something you like! i know an author who lives in Denver - i will make a call and see if she knows of any secret jobs and let you know! Sometimes it is who you know...but doesn't usually work for me :grin:
Hugs ya tight!
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Date: 2005-10-18 12:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-10-18 01:26 pm (UTC)That's *cold*. No wonder those people can't comprehend why us deep southerners don't wear layers. I'm thinking a space suit is advisable in your environment.
Snow in October... what a concept.
You are a powerful and amazing person. Confidence is believing in yourself. You should do so. You have every reason to.
Gene {LD}
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Date: 2005-10-18 09:51 pm (UTC)What's that saying about a cold day in hell?
I also have managed to come up with a resp. infection. Yay for me right? It was just a cold...was.
Thank you for the compliments darlin. I'm really glad we got to know each other of the weeks I was in BR. I am gaining confidence out of sheer necessity.
Talk to you soon.