autumnluv143

I am on my out the door for work and had to stop and write something (anything) down in hopes of refraining from whispering so many conversations with myself. It's becoming increasingly disturbing to catch myself doing.

(Note: If some of this doesn't make sense, it's because the coffee hasn't kicked in yet)

I will be walking around work, filing, working on the computer or even in the bathroom and catch myself actually whispering what used to only go on in my head. I practice conversations with myself playing the role of the other person. I've done it for as long as I can remember. I know it started as practicing comebacks for when I would get insulted (when I was in school and such). Now, I can't say I honestly know why I do it other than mere habit. I never actually have the conversations I practice. When actually in conversation with another person, my brain functions quite well enough to be able to come up with my own thoughts on it just then. I don't need the conversations. I'm sure there are people I work with that think I'm just a leeeetle beet off my rocker. They are probably right.

Hopefully by writing this down this morning it will at least clear my head for the rest of the day without catching myself whipering out loud things I will probably not say to another person. Writing usually does that...so...wish me luck.