Beat me, bite me, whip me...etc

[autumnluv143]

I don't think I've ever needed a beating so badly in my life. Anyone who knows me well or has ever seen me play knows very well that I play hard when I have a reason to do so. I need emotional release in a way that I can't describe and therapy just wasn't gonna do it this week.

I'm not necessarily in a bad mood, I just really need to put my head back on and there is no one to help me do that. I just want to growl and cry and make it all go away for a few minutes. I had to laugh a minute this morning because everyone at work will go to talk to me and look at the time, then seeing that it's before 10am will promptly turn around and go away. So apparently that means it's been building. I also checked my horoscope this morning and it was all this stuff about how much of an emotional day it was going to be. No, kidding. I am avoiding conversations around work because I know I will get frustrated or agitated and that will bring on the wealth of tears that need to come out. I know that talking to a boss is not the right time for a crying session like I have after a sound beating.

Oi, what's a girl supposed to do? So I'm going to go home tonight and look for a trigger that will allow me to cry my eyes out until I'm soaking wet and snotty and all gross looking. That would be happy.

Everyone should wish me luck in finding the trigger. I hate being a poopy-head when I feel like this. Anyone feel coming up to Colorado and beating my ass for a weekend? I'd pay in major service....

lol

Comments

[his-sweet.livejournal.com]

I love you, Ma'am and can not wait for you to be home. We miss you. I miss you. We need you. I need you, and i think that you need us too.


Love,

your girl

[dianagddss.livejournal.com]

I sure would like to leave you crying, welted and bruised. I'll just have to settle for wishing you luck finding that trigger. Good luck, ya' wonderful, bad girl!

**Miss You!**

[kjaereste.livejournal.com]

By the sounds of it, once you return, you'll be a blubbering mass of pain. Oh happy thoughts :D By the way, if you can, get into chat more often. ;)

[wolfaugen.livejournal.com]

ohhh how i wish i could help ya sweety, but unfortunately I'm in the same boat right now. I hate stress, especially when it's piled up and up and ... you get the picture. *hugs* miss yackin with ya hon!