I must be dealing better

[autumnluv143]

I know that I haven't written on here in awhile, but it's very difficult without internet access to keep an update going. Life is shitty and I'm depressed, but suprisingly today was much better because I didn't cry and get upset This is a major improvement over the last couple of years. Still, on the way home tonight, I'll be stopping at the liquor store for something yummy and drinking by myself at home tonight in a mini-celebration thingy or whatever while watching some movies.

I know one thing. I know that today I needed a beating more than any other day. I think I'm shit-out-of-luck on that though. *shrugs* I'll live.

So, I got quite a few responses on the local list to a few things and I thanked and answered some of them. If I haven't answered yours personally, please forgive me. I will but I need time when I'm not distracted and have the length of time available to do that. I may go to the library this weekend and do that. But, and I know it's late, thanks for the responses. I love you guys.

On the pet front, a new kitten fell into my lap. I was almost decided that I wasn't going to get one for awhile but this tiny 5 week old kitten was rescued from 20F weather and no one else was really willing so....I have a new kitten. I didn't even name her until the other day because I didn't want to get too attached. She's another strange one but I guess I'm used to that by now. I still miss my other cat. I look at the box with her ashes and feel guilty that I have this new kitten, but don't worry...I'll be ok with it. I'm already getting way attached to her and she's really a sweetie. She's a calico and now that I've had her a little over a week now, she does weight more than a pound and looks much healthier. She talks alot, but not as much as Voodoo and she needs to be right where I am most of the time. I know that she kind of sees me as her rescuer from the bad stuff and she'll probably calm down but I guess the bonding she's done to me, my smells and my apartment feels good.

Meh, I think I'll leave shortly to go get that alcohol. It just sounds like a great idea to me tonight. Too bad there's no one up here to come and join me.

Comments

[wolfaugen.livejournal.com]

gods i so wish i were with ya right now! Have a drink for me sweety!

[deb2some.livejournal.com]

i wish i could have had a drink with ya. i bought a new cork screw so that i could open the bottle of wine someone gave me. But i like scotch better.

Wow do i wish i could see you.

Happiness for the kitten - laps are good!

[demasque.livejournal.com]

Consider this an IOU for one good ass-beating when you get back to LA :)