Roles and Responsibilites of Olden Days

[autumnluv143]

So my mother is having knee replacement surgery towards the end of this month. That means that over this next week I'm going to be helping her rearrange her house so that she'll be able to move around when/if she needs to. Unfortunately this also means that during my time off of work I'm going to be primarily at her house helping her out. She needs the help and the surgery so I don't mind helping out at all. I guess what I am worried about though is my stress level going up even higher. I'll deal with it, I just hope that family and friends are patient with me.

Perhaps I should pray for guidance that I don't have to kill my mother before it's all over. 

In other news...I'm still thinking that I should do something about my job. I haven't bitched about it yet because whenI left Friday, I didn't want to think about it. Today is ok because I haven't tried to change or fix anything so no one has given me the old "Woah...woah now...you're probably right, this probably should be changed...but we've been doing it this way for 30 years and I just can't see it changing now." **Groan**

Also, I registered for school and met with the Undergrad Coordinator for the Earth and Environmental Sciences Dept. at UNO. He's a pretty cool job. I should start in the fall. YAY!! I think I'll feel whole again...even if I will be nuts between 40 hours of work, full time school and bouncing back and forth between two houses. If I know myself at all, I'll be happiest like that. When I'm just good and nuts.

Ok...time to get back to it.

Comments

[sttatus-quo.livejournal.com]

Having moved away.. and moved back again...

It is worth pointing out that moving back is a great time to really initiate those changes in behavior that will keep you safe from any crazy making activities on your mother's part as well as any behaviors of your own (like say... for example... making yourself so busy with outside stuff that you don't have time to think about what's bothering you so it builds and you crash) Not that I'm claiming that this might be a pattern I'm seein' or anything.

Set limits. Learning to say no nicely is the nicest thing you are ever going to do for yourself or another person. It defines your boundaries and keeps you on both feet.. solidly.

:: hugs ::

[autumnluv.livejournal.com]

LOL I'm always amazed that you know me so well when I feel like we've spent so little time in getting to know each other. Thank you for that.

Yes, I do keep myself busy to avoid thinking. I'm to prone to depression and so I attempt to keep myself from it by avoiding it. Even when I get depressed, I lose my patience with it and refuse to think that way anymore.

As far as my mother goes, I've fallen back into it because my brother and sister, what they were doing for her while I was gone, they are not anymore. I don't think they feel like they should now that i"m back home again. This is even with the fact that they told me I needed to move away to get away from our mother. I'm not at her house everyday but the obligation I feel towards her is something that may never go away. She felt the same way towards her mom. My only thing is that out of the two of us, I'm the only one that is aware of it. I hate it, but I still do it.

After this next year, there are too many factors going on this year and too many promises made, I'm going to be moving outside of Slidell. I'll still be in Louisiana so I won't feel so far removed, but I'm going to be away from the direct influences over my time spent and feelings of obligation.

We'll see how that goes. Thanks for the advice...yours is always appreciated. I just wish I could follow it without feeling like my heart was being ripped from my chest.

That just might be because I did/do the same thing, you know....

[sttatus-quo.livejournal.com]

Think about coming up for Beyond Vanilla this year. Usually there's a group that comes up from LA. Room rates are going to be $71 a night (if you split that 2-4 ways it gets very reasonable. Traditionally we have a get-together of my leather family and friends up here on one night of the weekend. I know it won't be Friday this year, I'm doing the entertainment for the event that night in two places. (somebody get me a warp tile).

I know solitaire and E are coming up and I'm hoping that Edge and a few others will make it up as well. Edge volunteered last year and seemed to have a wonderful time doing that.

Take some fun time for yourself, too, don't forget that.

[domestickitty.livejournal.com]

Ooo! We should have lunch or coffee or something 'round UNO. Let me know when you start taking class.....

[autumnluv.livejournal.com]

I will most definitely let you know. I won't start until the fall and I'm totally not sure what my schedule will be. I will at least be working full time during the first semester or two until i can figure out how crazy that will make me. I'll hit up your journal as soon as I know something solid.

Until then, I'm in St. Rose during the day and get off at 5pm everyday. I can't hang everyday but one day would be cool to get together!