Perfect Opportunity
Apr. 6th, 2004 09:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
autumnluv143I guess getting this journal, I thought I could use it as a way to release some stress..only I've been unable to come up with anything yet. Tonight I did. I don't know...After getting turned down for things in your life...you kind of develop a sixth sense about when you are going to get turned down. Jobs, dates, opportunities...etc. You begin to know, without hearing it, what the problems are. You're not physically attractive enough, you don't have the experience we need, negative, negative, negative. It gets to the point that no matter how much self confidence you think you have...you are usually wrong because all it takes is one look or an averted eye to make you realize that this situation isn't going to turn out how you want it to. You start to relive everything you've ever been told about yourself. Not the good stuff..of course not. Why would you recount the 10 good things that you've heard when you can degrade yourself further by recounting the 4 million bad things you've heard. I honestly don't care what other people think about me. The bad or the good. I'm happy that the people who like me do. I just don't care. I think it's ashame that the negative feelings you can develop just because a person is not what you like or who you are, is allowed to run rampant. Don't people realize that their close minded attitudes will only cause harm to another living soul? I wake up sometimes and dread the thought that i will have to face yet another set of people that may disapprove of me because they are short sighted. I know it's not me...all the same old self assuring crap you're supposed to tell yourself to make it "better." To be honest...that's a load of shit. I'm perfectly fine with myself...otherwise I would change. I don't feel sorry for me. I feel sorry for those who have the ability to make others believe that they don't care what you're into and who you are...they will like you anyway only to prove themselves wrong on meeting you or getting to know you. I also don't understand the logic behind sparing a person's feelings just because you don't want to have anything to do with them. If any person who reads this is guilty of intentionally lying to or avoiding the truth with someone because they don't want to "hurt" them. Get over it. You aren't so valuable that the rest of us can't live without you. If you meet someone on the basis that it may go somewhere and you don't feel any kind of chemistry....TELL THEM. Ultimately it will be easier. It's not mean, it's honest. Someone told me recently...it's better to be kind than truthful. Bullshit. the world is in enough trouble without adding that kind of attitude to it. I go through periods (right now being one of them) that I have alot to say to the rest of the population of this hate driven, attitude infested world..but then don't have the energy or willingness to actually do it because then I would have to Deal with them. Sometimes it's too much. I would much rather hide behind the moniter of my computer with my bedroom door shut and not have to look at another person with negativity spewing from whatever orifice they can muster it out of. That's all I can manage right now...maybe I'll dig up some more post adolescent rage later.
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Hey now..
Date: 2004-04-06 08:47 pm (UTC)2. Yer a cunt, but I still love you!
3. Who gives a shit about all the haters, you have me, and I love you!
4. Hell-O one word here - Robin. Oh 'nuff said! And I love you!
5. Want me to upgrade you so we can do cool shit to your LJ and you can use my lil icons offa my space? Cuz I love you! ;)
6. And because I love you... I'mma do something nobody else would do for you...
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Dude, put yer teef back in... *kisses*
Judge not, lest he be judged
Date: 2004-04-28 11:12 pm (UTC)