Surreal Moments
Nov. 14th, 2007 11:50 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
autumnluv143I believe I am at an impass. At least within my own head I am. I've already described this past weekend and it's paramount craziness. Monday was spent writing the paper, becoming extremely angry, getting quite nasty with people, calming down and eventually finishing the research paper. Tuesday I finished up and got to class (late) and turned it in. When I say that my brain turned into soggy mush after class that night, I'm not completely exaggerating.
I got on the interstate after class heading towards home. This is the interstate I'm on 5-6 times a week. I suddenly had a moment of not knowing where I was. I could feel panic rise and my eyes get big before logic came back online and it called me retarded and I went back to driving. If that wasn't bad enough, on the way to work this morning, I had some very surreal moments while driving. Nothing I can specifically describe or label, just flashing moments of "something is not right" or "something is different." When I thought about it, I knew I needed to write it down but the plan in my head and what I've actually written so far are very different. The one in my head was more poetic and deep (blech).
I can't flake out now. I still have three exams, 2 quizzes, 3 finals and a power point to build for an oral presentation. I WILL focus!
On a side note and to someone specific. Thanks for attempting to support me this weekend, even if I did fight it. Thank you for caring how well I do and knowing how important it is. Thanks for bumming around with me all night on SL so that I could relax and have some fun.
To the other one: Thank you for seeing my need to have things done well and reminding me that sometimes it's more necessary to have them done. And thank you for making me look a little more deeply into myself, allowing me to put myself on the emotional auction block.
Now to come up with $800 in the next month...
I got on the interstate after class heading towards home. This is the interstate I'm on 5-6 times a week. I suddenly had a moment of not knowing where I was. I could feel panic rise and my eyes get big before logic came back online and it called me retarded and I went back to driving. If that wasn't bad enough, on the way to work this morning, I had some very surreal moments while driving. Nothing I can specifically describe or label, just flashing moments of "something is not right" or "something is different." When I thought about it, I knew I needed to write it down but the plan in my head and what I've actually written so far are very different. The one in my head was more poetic and deep (blech).
I can't flake out now. I still have three exams, 2 quizzes, 3 finals and a power point to build for an oral presentation. I WILL focus!
On a side note and to someone specific. Thanks for attempting to support me this weekend, even if I did fight it. Thank you for caring how well I do and knowing how important it is. Thanks for bumming around with me all night on SL so that I could relax and have some fun.
To the other one: Thank you for seeing my need to have things done well and reminding me that sometimes it's more necessary to have them done. And thank you for making me look a little more deeply into myself, allowing me to put myself on the emotional auction block.
Now to come up with $800 in the next month...
