The long and short of random thoughts.
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autumnluv143I'm sitting at my former full-time job going through a week of LJ posts by people in my friends list and have come to the utter realization that misery seems to roll through people like a wave. Got started around the time of Homo erectus and hasn't really stopped since then. I certainly go through my fair share, whether self-induced or not, and while I can deal with that as it comes, I hate it for my friends. I want to do nothing more than to intercept a little of their misery and keep it from them. To stand guard so that they can stop and breathe in the onslaught of emotional/physical/mental tortures that seem to be affecting them. Not as a permanent status, by any means. I firmly believe that people should feel misery from time to time to be able to feel alive when the most recent batch of misery has departed. Unfortunately, the ones I want to help the most are the ones that either can not be helped by me or aren't of the impression that anything can help them at this moment, save letting the misery do its damage and hope for the best when it's over. That sucks.
I ran across the filtered post by the_ferrett earlier about telling him a secret. I told him one that I will not repeat here. Suffice it to say that I was rather astounded at the first thought that jumped into my head when I read that post. It's the secret I told too. I just hope that secret isn't true all of the time. I refuse to even think about it in case it is true all of the time. *le sigh*
The french man is no longer a legal alien. He's now a fully-fledged citizen of the US. I'm very happy for him. I was listening to him study for his interview and realized just how badly those who were born/raised in this country would do if they had, suddenly, to renew their citizenships. Pathetic.
Speaking of the french man: He knows just exactly what I want to hear and uses that to his full advantage. I love that. I love that I will do as he asks while I'm speaking to him and around him and when I'm no longer in his presence, it's not something to even worry over. He's never discussed his thoughts on the subject and neither have I. I know it will not go past what it is and that's perfectly fine with me. Just as long as he keeps whispering those deliciously self-serving words in my ears....
I can't wait until August. I won't have to worry or feel bad about not coming to work as I should be. I hate this place and every fiber of my being despises me for coming here. Now if I could get the manager trainee to pay attention long enough to teach him some stuff, I would actually feel like I'm on my way out. He only has a month to learn what he can from me and then he's on his own.
My new job is interesting. The first few days were that flood of fascination and excitement (and the adrenaline rush that comes with it). I was gushing with ideas on what I could help with and the extent to which I could use my loud mouth at professing the wonders of receiving an education in a virtual environment. But right now, in week two, I'm experiencing a bit of the boredom that comes with not being sure what to do with myself until they give me some direction. The Assc. Dean is in AZ this week (at least) and the professor I report to is preparing for a week long trip overseas for some kind of conference. So I've played with the walls I built in one building, I made a vase for another office and I'm working on creating a large solar system over the Louisiana Board of Regents building. That's proving difficult, but fascinating. We'll see if it's going to be accepted or not.
Since I'm working on three jobs and still finishing up that research paper, I don't have time to actually read as I would like to do. So while I was at the library researching recently, I browsed through the books on cd section and came across The Fountainhead. I need to go back and remember who suggested that book when I was looking for suggestions awhile back. There are about 27 cd's in the bookset and I'm on like 16. I LOVE this book. It's long, involved and complicated, but it's great. I love the main character and his relationships with others, specifically his lover. I can't wait to finish it. I WILL be purchasing this book for my collection.
Ok, enough said and back to a little real work. Bah.
I ran across the filtered post by the_ferrett earlier about telling him a secret. I told him one that I will not repeat here. Suffice it to say that I was rather astounded at the first thought that jumped into my head when I read that post. It's the secret I told too. I just hope that secret isn't true all of the time. I refuse to even think about it in case it is true all of the time. *le sigh*
The french man is no longer a legal alien. He's now a fully-fledged citizen of the US. I'm very happy for him. I was listening to him study for his interview and realized just how badly those who were born/raised in this country would do if they had, suddenly, to renew their citizenships. Pathetic.
Speaking of the french man: He knows just exactly what I want to hear and uses that to his full advantage. I love that. I love that I will do as he asks while I'm speaking to him and around him and when I'm no longer in his presence, it's not something to even worry over. He's never discussed his thoughts on the subject and neither have I. I know it will not go past what it is and that's perfectly fine with me. Just as long as he keeps whispering those deliciously self-serving words in my ears....
I can't wait until August. I won't have to worry or feel bad about not coming to work as I should be. I hate this place and every fiber of my being despises me for coming here. Now if I could get the manager trainee to pay attention long enough to teach him some stuff, I would actually feel like I'm on my way out. He only has a month to learn what he can from me and then he's on his own.
My new job is interesting. The first few days were that flood of fascination and excitement (and the adrenaline rush that comes with it). I was gushing with ideas on what I could help with and the extent to which I could use my loud mouth at professing the wonders of receiving an education in a virtual environment. But right now, in week two, I'm experiencing a bit of the boredom that comes with not being sure what to do with myself until they give me some direction. The Assc. Dean is in AZ this week (at least) and the professor I report to is preparing for a week long trip overseas for some kind of conference. So I've played with the walls I built in one building, I made a vase for another office and I'm working on creating a large solar system over the Louisiana Board of Regents building. That's proving difficult, but fascinating. We'll see if it's going to be accepted or not.
Since I'm working on three jobs and still finishing up that research paper, I don't have time to actually read as I would like to do. So while I was at the library researching recently, I browsed through the books on cd section and came across The Fountainhead. I need to go back and remember who suggested that book when I was looking for suggestions awhile back. There are about 27 cd's in the bookset and I'm on like 16. I LOVE this book. It's long, involved and complicated, but it's great. I love the main character and his relationships with others, specifically his lover. I can't wait to finish it. I WILL be purchasing this book for my collection.
Ok, enough said and back to a little real work. Bah.
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Date: 2008-07-02 11:50 pm (UTC)The Fountainhead was my first... and stands as my all-time favorite... Ayn Rand books. It is just sooooooo... sexy. I don't know how else to describe it. Most of her big fans like Atlas Shrugged or one of the others, but The Fountainhead is my favorite.
There's a movie, if you didn't know already, based on it. It's not anywhere close to as good as the book, but it's worth it if you love the book.
B~